I've been with him for 4 years now. His parents want to meet my parents. From many's point of view, it would be absolutely legit. However, why do I feel so pressured about it. It's as if I don't want them to meet yet. It's not like I have anything to hide or feel ashamed about anything. I don't know what this feeling means.

Last night, he casually talked to me about moving into his place. (He still lives at home, by the way.) I immediately objected the idea. I personally wouldn't ever want to move into my boyfriend's place if he still lives at home. It would make things so awkward, even if his parents were the ones who wanted to me to move in! He didn't seem to understand the point that I was trying to make, that not many in today's society would live with their other half's parents or in-laws even. I really would like my personal space and don't want to have to change my living style to suit others' way to living. He sounded annoyed and disappointed at what I was saying. Maybe he's just not mature enough to understand yet. After all, we are only 21 and 22.

Was I being unreasonable? Will he understand one day? Will this work out?

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I've always thought that everybody has a somebody they could talk to about anything and everything. Today, I finally grew up to realise that that's not always the case. Or at least it isn't the case for me. All along for the past three years that I've been with him, I always believed that he was there to listen to me, to listen to everything I had to say, from something about me to something about the random conversation I heard from a colleague. It isn't like that. He doesn't even want to listen to anything extra except things about me. The world doesn't just revolove around me, I want to share other people's stories with him too! That's how we grow and learn things through life, isn't it?

I feel so stressed from work already and I just want to get home at the end of the day and be able to talk to someone I trust and who will listen to me. Have a looked for the wrong person? Who should I turn to now?

This is one of the only places where I can just rant on about what I want.

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mum and sister went overseas to visit grandma and for a holiday... before they left, we were happily writing lists of things we wanted them to buy... but now that thye're not here, its quiet and I feel lonely despite the fact I still have my bro and dad around.. I hardly talk to dad and my bro is 8 yrs younger. I didn't think I'd miss them so much to the point that I'd cry, but I did.

They'll be home in another 27 days, but each day passes by so slowly it depresses me.
I feel sort of stupid lol.

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why is it that people don't realise what they had to begin with until they have lost it? why does everyone always complain and whinge. why isn't anybody satisfied with what they have? if i stop treating him the way i use to, if i stop putting in as much effort as i use to, will he realise the things i did all along for him and stop complaining already? i hate this. its been over a year and a half and we still fight so much. one of my friends told me that this is only the beginning of a long relationship. boy, to be honest, these 19 months have been so tiring and long i feel like ive aged 10 years! it isnt supposed to be like this, is it? do i deserve better?

somebody tell me.

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i dont know what to do (once again)... i swear my mum dislikes my boyfriend no matter how much she says she doesnt dislike him that much... she tells me that she only dislikes him because he's lazy, but thats not even true. He's not lazy. if anything, im lazier than he is.she tells me off for going out to dinner with him too much... so i thought, maybe she likes me to eat dinner at home with her more often... so i do, but sometimes, just sometimes, i bring him over too... and she starts complaining about how he comes over for dinner too often... its only been twice this week.. and he hasnt been to my place for AGES now... literally... a couple of months... at least 4 or 5 months now... and i respect the fact that she doesnt like me being home alone with him... so i always tell her when hes coming over and making sure she's home on the day too... she dislikes us having my room door shut even though we're only watching dvds or youtube on my computer... so fine, i leave my room door open too... what more can i do? i know she doesnt like seeing us hold hands and cuddling in front of her... so fine, we dont even touch eachother at all when he's here.... but last night when she told me to 'be careful' of him just because he's come over for dinner twice this week, i couldnt really comprehend.

what was that suppose to mean? he's not trustworthy because he's been having dinner here too often? when i go out for dinner, she dislikes it. when i ask him to come over for dinner, she dislikes it too. initially she said it was because we dont always have time to cook fantastic food and she feels embarassed in a way, having to share crappy boring food with guests... but even if she does cook nice food or something, its not like she likes to have him over... i hate the fact she's so twofaced as well, she pretends its all good when hes around and even sometimes in front of me... then in the mornings when im still in bed and partially awake... she'll be badmouthing very LOUDLY as if i wouldnt hear her about how hes always here for dinner and stuff.

can someone teach me what to do, PLEASE? she hates everything. i dont know what to do. i've been with im for over a year now... what am i suppose to tell him at the end of the day when hes come all the way to my local shopping centre (2 hrs by public transport) just to see me and shop around with me.... 'hey man, go home, you can't come over for dinner' i just couldnt say something like that, its not like hes a picky eater, he eats everything... sometimes he feels bad for coming over for dinner, so he asks my mum if she wants to go out for dinner instead, his shout.... and she always says no.... he's already trying to do what he can, im already doing my best, what more can i do? i feel so crap, im so stressed, i dont know what to do anymore.

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fucking asshole .... whenever hes being an asshole he only reminds me of my ex... why? cos he was an asshole too... what kind of fucking loser tells you to shut the fuck up but then expects you to respond and when you dont they start screaming over the phone as though you're deaf and doesnt even go to consider that it damages your ear as well as causing a lot of unnecessary pain? then they get all pissy and start swearing and shit .. like seriously what the fuck is wrong with you? i should be the one pissed here, you fucking told me to shut up for no fucking serious reason then expect me to respond to what you say... a little contradicting there... whoever happens to be reading this... if you believe im just bitching then so be it... i AM bitching atm but go think about why i may be bitching!

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